Gossip

I seriously have to write something for my blog. Resisting is not an option for me.
After coming back for so long, I haven't write anything for my dearest blog, feeling shameful for my Blog. Work, work, work... Time for my private time with Bloggy!

Gossip

Girls like to gossip, including the boys. Last night when I was watching "RachelRay" late night show (missing the David Letterman Late Night Show, damn NTV7 for replacing the GOOD show!). The show gave me an idea on this topic. Rachel (the Host) inspired me when she decided to let 4 women stop gossiping for a WEEK! That's not hard for certain people, but I can seriously tell you that they couldn't even resist the 'taste' of saying people's 'back'. When the challenge started, they were speechless, in a manicure shop.

The girls just say there in total silence... The show ended by the time I went to bed. LoL

Gossiping is a sin among Christians, but how can we tell that we are gossiping?
Basically giving false accusations and stories isn't a good idea. Gossiping can be 'deadly'.

This week's Sunday church, 'Mouth can be Disasterous, Mouth can be Praiseful'.
The Priestess said that among our body parts, the tougue/mouth, is beyond our control.
We, humans, can control beasts, control most of the things on Earth, but can't dominate our own tongue...

We hear what other people says and make short conclusions. Have you wonder that what if you are the one who is being talked about, letting other people to have bad impresions of you when you haven't do anything bad?

It must be frustrating and desparing...

So 'filter' of what other people says, comparing ourselves 1st before concluding others. What is our worth or power to say someone when we are no better than others?

The End Of Semester One, 2008

Finally it's over! The EXAM has ended my 1st sem in Swinburne Uni. This has been a great deal to me cause this is my 1st experience in a Uni, and thank God that all ends well...

And I'm still in 1 piece! Wuahaha...

I did make some bad impressions on some people,but hey! Who doesn't make mistakes? And I'm glad that it's over too. Still... it's kinda hard to face those guys. Sorry man!

Most of my dearest Swinburne friendzis went back home, and I start to miss them already, in Kuching, my aunt's house. Guys, I'll always remember you all, thanks for the good times! I'll appreciate them always. Hope to see you all soon, or ASAP!

Well, back to my hometown, same old place where I was born, walked, ran, drove, had primary and secondary school life. But those are the past, now I have to venture through those memories to create more precious and mindful 'videos and pictures' in my head... or brain.

I have to go to work at the same old place, my other aunt's home, or home-based shop? Or should I say a shop in a home? Whatever lah!

It's a good place to be or a last place you'll be thinking of getting a job there. Since my aunt(hometown one) asked me to get back to help her, so I don't mind to get my arse back to the 'horrible' place. Her house is always an 'unstable' workplace. She and her family gets along by almost fighting all the time. Can't blame the kids, they are truly 'emo' children, who my cousins only gets along when they are 'needy' in some favours. They don't always listen to their mom(my aunty in my hometown) unless, they are in happy mood.

Geesz... I wish I won't be working there for too long, just in the favour of my part-time job, or big fat juicy pocket money. I may work there for almost 2 months.

So I guess it won't be long enough before I knew it's 'Back-to-Uni' time (as IF!). Just sabar sabar sikit.

All will be fine...

I hope so...

Tomorrow's the day! Hometown, here I come!

*PS: Go back by 'land-bus', instead of air-bus. Promoted by Biaramas, the land version of AirAsia. I spinned the lucky Wheel-of-Biaramas, but only got a can of 'F&N Full Cream Milk' after buying a '2-way' bus ticket.
Ngaidi... Wish I got a ViVA, or a massage chair at least(Yeah, dream on!).
Plus, I met my Programming 1 teacher this afternoon, in the middle of the traffic jam somewhere in Kuching, in front of his Perodua Kancil! What a coincidence. We said 'Hi' in a soundless way. We were in our cars.

The ColorQuiz I've taken

Roy took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "His need to feel more causative and to have a wide..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Roy's Existing Situation

Readily participates in things that provide excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilarated.

Roy's Stress Sources

Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which he feels separates himself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. He therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on him and insists on being free and unhampered.

Roy's Restrained Characteristics

Believes that he is not receiving his share--that he is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that he is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave him without any sense of emotional involvement.

Feels that he cannot do much about his existing problems and difficulties and that he must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow himself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.

Roy's Desired Objective

His need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes him restless and he is driven by his desires and hopes. May try to spread his activities over too wide a field.

Roy's Actual Problem

Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

Roy's Actual Problem #2

The fear that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants leads him into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.


I just tried this quiz out for fun. It does shows some promising answers. Well just for reference only oh!

2nd Day of My Final in 1st Sem

Wow! That was indeed fast! Just finished my inno test, & right now there are still some students in the Exam field, surviving the 'exam-war'. Well, there were some of them earlier than me, but...

Who Cares!

That's half-relief for my examination stress and I still have to study my maths this whole day.

The inno was like so easy and steady for me, cause I already finished my inno textbook a few days ago, while worrying on the '9 lives of the CAT' will come out.

Sadly... It didn't show up in the test papers! Wuahaha!

I wrote my papers in a flash and ended it in about 1 & a half hours (there were some finished in 1 hour though).

This morning I woke up at 7.20am & revised my 'secret' paper which I got last night. I watched the 'Love Guru' before I when to bed, but I read through the whole paper to get a minor knowledge with the 'questions' of the 'secret' paper.

And I can say they are 'quite' similar from the 'pirated' one with the 'original' one. Lucky me.
That explains why I can finish my inno test fast.

Well, back to my study and gaming then!

God Bless the Examiners and the Students =)

My Angel

I have been keeping this poem for so long in my laptop that I almost forgot bout it. I wrote a lot of poem before but I always misplace them somewhere in my PC. This is not my latest creation but I'll put it here anyway. Feel free to give a comment if you like.

~ My Angel ~

You keep me alive

Like an angel in the sky

You look unreachable because you are high

I can’t even touch your thigh

I reject and deny

That you are ugly and simplify

I wish I’m given enough time to notify

To eat and share a pie

Happy together without making you cry

Someday we can hold hands and fly

Into the Kingdom with no why

~

Crying...

Crying can mean many things.

We cry...

When we are losing someone.
When we are hurting someone.
When we are being hurt.
When we are touched by something sad.
When we are failing to achieve something.

This obviously, when we are sad...

In the other hand.

We cry...

When we are having a new born baby.
When we are watching a happy ending.
When we are missing each other.
When we are looking at our married children.
When we are having precious memories.

This obviously, when we are enjoying ourselves, having sweet times together.


Tears of sadness, Tears of joy;
Tears of losing, Tears of gaining.

People are having this emotion, since their day of birth, showing their nature feelings.
Now, we also cry when we realized that we are having something or losing something.
I cried before... when...
The 1st day I was born.
The 1st time when I was hungry.
The 1st time when I missed my family.
The 1st time when I watched a really nice & sad movie.
The 1st time when I went to NS.
The 1st time when I messed up other people's life.
But this doesn't end here.
Who knows, I may be crying now in my heart.

Crying doesn't mean that you must show your tears, and sometimes you'll probably cry for nothing. It's just a relief of stress, your inner feelings that you want to let go. Crying makes me feel good when I can't cry out loud, so I have to let out bits by bits.

I wonder, what if people can't cry? Will they let out their stress well? Even for boys, crying is better for us to express our world inside. Men can't cry easily because they don't want to show their soft side; Women can use the crying method to make men softhearted sometimes. We men are the same, will cry like a woman, but won't show it in the public.
Crying is a good 'tool' that benefits everyone. We cry, we let go everything that bind our mind every time we think about them, no matter good or bad.

Feel free to cry sometimes, and it will make you free from keeping that something in your life's memory.

Cleverness & Wisdom 聪明&智慧

Actually I want to write this post in Chinese, but it takes too much time.
So English will have to do...
Here goes!

What is cleverness? What is wisdom?

Definition, cleverness (聪明) -
Online Dictionary - Mentally quick and original; bright
My POV - Using something you learn from either people or things to solve problems

Definition, wisdom (智慧) -
Online Dictionary - Common sense; good judgment
My POV - Using what you experienced in life & your knowledge to make decisions

It's hard to explain with words with these complicated 'Brothers' when united. Both of them are strongly related to each other in leading people's life. They are inseparable throughout the human's history.

Cleverness is mainly began from writings and words. This is the basic starting point of knowledge before wisdom. We learn from books, stories, encyclopedias, dictionaries, but all of these give you the meaning of those words and their structures of your great knowledge in the future.

Wisdom is given to those who think with common sense. Logical thinking, adding some future predictions. Some say that this is Six Sense, and some say this is your spiritual guidance. But all these starts from what you have experienced in your life and what is your perspective in life. Confucius is one of the great modal for Wise Men. It's like doing your 'Innovation & Change'; PMI, CAF, NAF, and so on. Have you ever wonder that this course does have it's own destiny to lead us to maturity or wisdom?

The more we learn in our years of living, the more possibilities we can get and make use of them, hence this adds into our 'Wisdom Database'.

From what I watched from the 'Video Jug' in the pass few weeks, there's a video clip called 'How to be a Psychic?'.
The guy said that "a psychic can see different things and learn more than normal people who doesn't have time to think over everything he saw in his life", "he can see the third dimension or so called the spirit world", "he thinks somehow differently with others".

I did saw a spirit when I was about 11 years old. That was the time when I heard my old dog behind my house, howling like crying over something. In Chinese myth, it says that when you hear a dog 'cries', it means there is some 'spirit/ ghost' nearby. We humans tend to think that the 'ghost' is something like in the movies, scary... Back to my story. By that time, behind my old house lies a small forest. At that age, Sibu was not much of a city, so there were many forest around. In the night about 8-9pm, my dog howled when I was taking a bath in the 2nd floor. My bathroom was just behind my house, and once I came out from the bathroom, I could see the dark forest. There it hovered, across the dark, in white... I thought I was blurred at that time, but no. My hound kept on looking at that 'thing', where I spotted it. When it was gone, my dog stopped.

So is this considered as my whole new perspective in my thinking? I don't really know. Scientifically speaking, there is no such thing as ghost. But later in this era, there are too many signs, showing that God did created this world. The world has changed, but we still staying in the same old way. I can tell you that spirit does exist. Maybe I have to convince you by show it to you, but it depends on how you believe it. Don't make fun with the holy spirit and God, who knows, someday we'll be meeting him when the time comes.

Oh yeah, actually I want to connect my post with what I heard from the priestess in my Sunday church today. She said that even though you are with great wisdom and knowledge, you still have to fear and bow to thy God. He's the real 'person-in-charge' in our life. So don't play play with Him.

Add-on: My mother's eldest brother (my uncle), he had seen more spirits than I had. Once he saw a few spirit in the midnight near the porch that he hid himself under the car, waking up the next day morning there. LOL

【男的朋友，男朋友与老公异同】

1.

男的朋友：他会说好多好多好听的话哄你开心，就算你再怎么生气发脾气他都是笑嘻嘻的，他会想方设法讨好你，应为他在追求你。

男朋友：他只会对你说一些有用的话，更多的是谈论你的生活，健康，学习，工作等方面的事，因为他从心里关心你。

老公：他会嫌你话多，她不会说好听的甜言蜜语给你听，甚至不准做无聊的事，因为他认为你是他的。

2.

男的朋友：他会让你逃课，带你去任何你想去的地方玩，他也会陪你干一些你喜欢的疯狂事情，因为他想哄你开心，但他没有为你的将来着想。

男朋友：他督促你去上课，让你早点起来看书。他催你做作业，上课要听讲，所以上课的时候不会和你说话，他也会陪你自习。他考虑的是你的未来，他希望你好。

老公：她才不会管你怎么样，相反的是你督促他不要抽烟喝酒，在家里他就得听你的。

3.

男的朋友：他不在乎你和其他的男生来往，他只觉得和你在一起开心就好。

男朋友：你要是和其他的男生在一起，他会吃醋，他会发脾气，他会不高兴，甚至想扁那个男生，他不愿意和其他人共同拥有你。

老公：如果你和其他男人有来往，他的脸色会很难看，甚至你给异性打电话过于投入，他也会故意在你身前咳嗽，脾气不好的可能还会吵架。

4.

男的朋友：当你穿一件很漂亮但是有点暴露的衣服的时候，或你化妆得很漂亮的时候，他会夸你漂亮，说各种让你开心的话哄你，可以把你说得好开心好兴奋。他在讨好你！

男朋友：他也会说你好美，好漂亮，但在赞美你过后，他会说一句：虽然这样很漂亮，但只能穿给我看。

老公：干嘛穿成那样？你什么样我还不知道吗？

5.

男的朋友：当你生病难受的时候，他会说一些笑话或一些开心的事逗你开心，让你觉得他好。他问你的病情怎么样，然后关心你，让你觉得他是世界上最关心你的人。

男朋友：如果你病得很重，他会担心你的病情，甚至整夜不睡都在担心，因为你痛苦他的心也会痛。如果你病不是很严重，他会不停的唠叨，要你以后注意一点啊，关心到甚至你烦。

老公：虽然平时不是很关心你，甚至不在乎的样子。你生病的时候，他还会不停的埋怨你，怪你怎么搞的，没事生什么病。但你放心，为你端水端饭的绝对是他，当你第二天病好醒来，他绝对是坐在床边守着你睡着的，那时你会觉得其实他蛮可爱的。

6.

男的朋友：我喜欢你！希望永远和你在一起！

男朋友：我爱你！不要离开我！

老公严厉地对你说：我只爱你一个人！

每个人做事都有自己的理由，不管是好是坏，希望从中得到利益。朋友中的服侍跟对待不一定是坏的，虽然有的看起来很有企图心，心机重似的，每个人的做法都不同。就像之前的【男的朋友，男朋友与老公异同】的小故事：每个都要表达同一个讯息。

尤其是异性对你特别好的时候，就会感觉得到他一定有一定的请求来讨你欢心。其实有时我们太多心了。朋友之间的相处都有不一样的举动来表达，给不同的人，不同的概念和达到的意思。而且有时暗示得太深，令人有个错误的概念，直到他人误会，弄巧反拙。