Worries

I'm thinking over what I have done...

...That I'm starting to change into a devil in the blog world...
...That I'm starting to hurt people's feelings...
...That I'm too emotional and start to get revenge in the blog world...
...That I'm doing stupid things in the blog world...
...That I'm messing other people's life...
...That I can't control my blogging's bad attitude...
...That I'm falling into blog world...
...That I'm turning into a childish blogger...
...That other people hate me for what I've wrote...
...That people gives bad impression to me in the real world...
...That I offended other people for my writings...

What have I done?!
I asked myself...
Is this my true self?
Is this my true form?
Is this what I really want?
Am I pretending to be good and polite in the real world?
Am I thinking too much?
What is my real objectives in my life?
Who am I for all these years?

Thanks for the people who read my blog, now I have to 'reset' myself.
I apologize for what I've done to you all, and hope for forgiveness...
I was over protecting myself and trying to fight back, but things won't end well like this.
It's like a war, leaving casualties and black memories.
Even the word 'Sorry' won't do any better.
Unless they are kind enough to forgive and forget all of this.

In the real world, I've always being bullied by people.
They mocked me, teased me, making fun of me, call me names, but still they are my friends.
That was years ago. I can't let go my tensions when I was very young. I don't know what to do and where to express myself. Until I meet the Blog World...

In my mind, I curse people, say bad things about them if they have done something I can't really forgive, but I'll eventually change my mind a few days later. I found out that it's hard change my words again after for what I wrote, and people will get offended and think that I'm a bad person. It takes time for me to think over something bad into positive. Sometimes I'm angry with things, but I'll remind myself that things will get better over time, and you may find it funny and interesting when you recall them. I learn from the negatives and dull experiences, nothing will be more valuable than these.

What have I learned... yesterday (Updated)

I'm kind of depressed yesterday after causing so much trouble but Mark make me feel really good with his simple and deep words. This is what he said...

Blog world is the virtual world to give our opinions to others, and when people flame your opinions at the first place, you are not the one who looks bad, it's them who look stupid.

Try to explain to the flamers with your own words may not change their minds because they don't know your stress of the words and they may misunderstand of what you said. They may be angry at that time and they will read your explanations with anger and change the 'colours' of the meaning to their likings.

When things are getting 'hot', try to leave it there for a while and explain after some time. If they still don't understand it, try again after some time again. But still talking is a better way to explain because they can really feel what you said.

The more you grip or protect of what you have, to more you loss from time to time.

Over protecting your friends and families without using proper way can make you more enemies around you.

Even the best of a friend can back stab you anytime and we better be prepared for anything.

If you lose friends here, you'll have to make friends there.
(I hate this part, but still have to make use of this in the real life sometimes)

And the last but not least...
He likes to collect original games and sometimes pre-order them! Haha...

Finally it's over...
I'm now happy that things are now calm at the moment and I can 'rest in peace'. Lol... I mean sleep in peace... whatever lah! Hahaha... ... ...

PS. Again, I'm not shooting anyone here, this is what Mark convinced me. Btw, thanks Mark, for everything.

The Do's & Dont's

What can you do in a BLOG?

Do's

01. Express your true inner self, write whatever you want.
02. Give opinions from what you know and take opinions from people as your reference.
03. Write your own post with emotions sometimes and make sure you let all the anger out in your post at a time (but don't smash your laptop or keyboard lah).
04. Give comments with friendly words and rational advices.
05. Read more than twice on the people's blog post before giving comments.
06. Try to keep other people's comments clean and clear from 'flaming'.
07. Counter attack other people when they 'flame' you with proper explanations and better with reference in case they reject from what you said.
08. Praise the blogger who write a nice post for you to read.


Dont's

01. Try to 'flame' people's blog post without knowing what you said. This can show that you are really stupid.
02. Don't give any opinion if you don't really carefully read through the whole blog post.
03. Don't admit or let people know that you are the one who the blogger was mentioning about.
Exp.
Owner of the blog -' I saw that he is naked while running around.'
The comment-er - 'Have dare you said that I ran around naked? I was wearing my pants, you know?'
Then people knows bout you and try to find out who you are.
04. Giving opinions like a 3 years old child.
Exp.
'You can't do this but I can /I ban you from giving comments in my blog'
What can you do by stopping or ordering people around in the blog?
05. Read people's blog post and take things seriously and emotionally and giving emotional comments.
06. Find out the blogger and try to take actions by yourself.
Exp.
Still remember the ISA case? Now people are making fun of them because they arrest bloggers, do you want to be like them? Then the rest of the bloggers will soon write something about you, and flame you.
07. Make enemies with the blogger in the real world. You may not know who are you dealing with. And better don't let them know who you are when you are flaming them without reasons. Since virtual blogging is a safe place to release stress and emotions, then just stay in the blog world.

(flame= giving comments by cursing, insulting, scolding, and something similar to that)

PS. Will add more if I have more info bout the Do's & Dont's.

Today...

Hmm... nothing special today oh...

I was overslept this day and I missed my General Maths' class... and I don't like that.
G.Math is one of my favourite class since I like Maths so much just like my father. Only Maths can make me feel 'challenged' and have fun. Have you ever heard of Sudoku? Well... I can say it can be boring sometimes when you can't solve it till the end.

English... hmm... I was once the top 5 in my English test results and it FEELS GREAT! haha...
English is also one of my favourite class when I was in my primary and secondary schools. I even got myelf the '11 SPM students' who got 1A for both Malaysian Education Department and GCE-O Level in Cambridge's markings. I also got Band 5 in my STPM's MUET. Those were the old days.

Since university students tend to speak English often, there is not much I can show with my talents in Maths and English, but still my friends ask my help sometimes when they have difficulties with them. I like to study Maths with Guhan sometimes. He's a bit 'slow' in understanding Maths at times but still he's good. He got A1 in Maths and B3 in Additional Maths. Wow! I only got A2 in my Maths and... D8 in my Add-Maths... lol

Last night I had my greatest experience for this month and it was fun too. The 'debate' started quite late at that time and I can't sleep because I was too excited and frustrated (a bit) until I slept at 2 o'clock in the morning, resulting, I missed my Maths class.

Oh well, there's always the 1st time... and the 2nd... and a 3rd... Who knows? haha... better try not to.

I'm a 'Think-ful' person when it comes to 'debating' (mostly not the official debates in class or clubs lah), I kept on thinking 'How can I overcome these questions? Possiblities? How to counter-attack those questions? hmm...' That's why I can think so much while doing other things (please refer to my 1st post). I can sometimes focus two stuff at a time, but things may end up bad...

What so ever lah!

The End...

PS. I'm urged to post pictures of my dearest grandma... hmm... hard to pick up a time though.

Virginity

Virginity....
That's what mostly boys want from the girls. I can say that us, boys, like to have virgin girlfriends and wives. But have you wonder why the boys have sex with their girlfriends and later, saying that he'll be responsible and then dump them... along... aside?

In Christian's rule, 'Virgins' are considered as holy as the church it's self. The body is kept for their true marriage in the church, with official certificates, until they are really bound together with love and sacrifices they shall give to each other as husband and wife... eternally. This is true.

Think of it, whether you are a religious person or not, you give out your 'virgin' to your boyfriend (serious cases with girls at the most), then after the 'fun' and 'romantic' night, you ask your boyfriend, 'you have to be responsible for what you did to me oh... '. Then they start to promising each other with sweet talk and cuddling together as if they are married.

The second day/ the rest of the year...
'You bastard! How can you betray me! I am so loving you and dedicated myself to you... but now you dump me and fall for another girl!?'

Or...
*Slap!* *Staring at the boy* 'Who is she!? Why are you with her?' Then starts the drama...

There are big chances that this case happens and imagine that this happens to YOU!

This is moral and dignity I'm talking about! You guys don't enjoy these kind of immoral act to the girls, as things can come to you 'accidentally', then you find yourself get killed by the fathers or the ex-girlfriends themselves. Revenge is hard to prevent when people get their tensions high, and emotions take complete control of him/ her.

'Shotgun marriage' is the term used by pregnancy before marriage, starting when a farmer taking a shotgun, pointing at his young daughter's boyfriend, forcing him to take full responsibility and marry his daughter ASAP. Things doesn't ends here, the rest of their lives might end up in chaos, fighting, cheating, hurting, and killing.

People... imaginary about having fun with sex can't be prevented, but discipline is a must have to make yourself clear that these 'fun' can ruin not only your life but others as well. Put yourself up with strict principles and rules when falling in love are the matured love that I want to have. The opened minded era that misleads the people around, is now making the girls look like hookers and prostitutes, only the difference is that they are not paid by money but charming acts or seductions. More girls in the western countries are being treated like bitches and sex mates by the boys, making the countries fail in moral education... epic failure...

The 'Playboy' magazines are now using girls like 'prostitutes' to make them look famous and sex-fun when their naked bodies are exposed to the public. I mean, come on, you girls look even better when you are virgins and make your husband happier when they found out that you are still a virgin, and you look so pretty and sexy in front of them. This is the fact.

There are a few times that I found out that friends like to give 'condoms' as presents to their friend either in a birthday or special events.

'Are you encouraging your friend to have sex before marriage or you are out of your mind?' this is what my mind pops out when I knew this happened. 'This is not funny at all... You might get your friend killed...one day...'

Boys will definitely try to use their 1st condom on the girl they like, and this ends up bringing a serious tragedy... Sex before marriage, pregnancy before 18, even worst... RAPE...

40% that a condom will fail, so does the prevent-pregnant pills which fail at 30%...

Boys and girls out there, before you have your first boyfriend/ girlfriend, think about anything that can possibly happen to you when you have sex with them... as I said... this is just the beginning of lust... and ending with unhappily ever after...


God bless to those who are wise... and those who listen to the wise...

Maturity

Have you wondered why you are not matured enough? But is there a limit or measures for it? No.

The true maturity comes from what you have learned and thoughts, based on your own experiences. We, human, can learn so much to improve ourselves. Maturity includes discipline, knowledge and life experiences.

From what you have gained from the surroundings and people, you can see that we all learn from mistakes and past. The more failure we get, the more mature we tend to be. But only after you can take over the events and guide yourself to success.

Discipline is a must have in our lives to control our attitudes and habits for helping ourselves in avoiding unnecessary 'additional' events and problems in our daily lives. This can really come in handy for the people who likes to learn the true meaning of maturity. SO laziness have to be controlled to become more mature.

Wisdom is also one of the key to success and maturity. We must think for certain amount of time to give out conclusions and decisions to just a minor stuff, and this takes a lot of patience. So, now do you think that being mature is an impossible mission? No.

People who tend to look smart and mature sometimes gives themselves the hard times because sooner or later, their real image will show up to the public and their friends. Seriously, acting like a matured person won't make you look good.

Knowledge comes from newspapers and books. Please read as much as you can to follow up the trends and solutions for maturity like relationships and social studies. This will fit in a great portion of advantage in maturity.

Keep on communicating with others well to learn more about your friends, neighbours, enemies (if you have). Those you hate and those you like will probably give you something in return as in experience or the way we talk. Learning new body language will surely give you some advantages in social skills and suitable sayings to fit in some special events like arguing/ fighting, praising, confronting new people, and comforting your friends.

The people you choose to be with is also a showing that you are matured enough to handle and befriend with the others. Your decisions are basically from what you have learned and experienced from the past or from other people's knowledge. For instance, from your friends, you know that the person you are 'targeting' as your boy/ girlfriend, from what he/ she like and attitude towards others. Maybe a little bit mix up with your pass experience with your ex-es, for what you have learned from them.

Matured people don't want to expose themselves much in the crowd for most of the times and most are boring lads who don't mix with new people much. They only depends much on luck to have a boy/ girlfriend than grouping around 'mindless' people who only enjoy the fun of doing stupid stuff as their pastimes.

From what other people said, that I'm matured. I do think like a matured guy, I do do stuff like a matured guy, my attitude is kind of strict and disciplined at times, but still I have much to learn from the others, the more you are matured, the less fun you tend to have sometimes. This fun is the mix of good and bad, but you may get some decent memories from it. I have failed to get my first girlfriend, because I'm a softhearted guy, helping the girls around does give me the credits but they always care for a boyfriend who can stay beside them for a long time, daily - which I can't do, unless we are officially boy-girlfriends, still it's hard. They can get my blessings but what can I get? Appreciations? Gratitude? That's fine with me. No blessings at the moment though. Helping is one thing, plagiarizing is another. I'll help only if necessary because I want them to be independent as their on. I don't want to involve cheating to make someone my girlfriend, better make myself clear to the crowd.

Sleepless Night

It's like so 'whoa' that I just broke my 'more than 24 hours sleepless' record! Yesterday, I woke up at 8.30am, then in the night, me and my editorial gang, Frank, Izaak, Muaid, Philip, and Henry were like busy ants, fighting the night to finish our assignments and jobs.

I had to finish my page layout for my English class magazine, like 28 Articles! That might look easy but I can tell you... it's not.

I had prepared the templates but no one was going to help me out so I have to do it along. *sob*

Later, Frank the Editor, and the rest went back to their respective home for their web page 'war'.

Anyway, Chong and Ezra had decided to help me out by supporting me with their 'spirit'(?). They have their own work, Innovation report and web page for IT. After they 'habis' their parts, they kept on accompanying me by playing DOTA and CS by themselves. Obviously, they had nothing more to do. Ezra gave up by 5.30am and went to sleep, while Chong still can manage to hold up his passion for a while.

But he fell asleep a few times... nevermind.

I kept on 'surviving' by putting on my Goddess' picture as my desktop background as my support to keep on doing my stuff, arranging the articles... And I kept on saying 'Do it for my Goddess' and like said it for a few times when I started to feel sleepy. Guess what, it worked.

The motivation kept me going until 7am, then I fell asleep, but Chong woke me up at 8am, still it's a good 'refreshing' nap. I missed my morning IT lecture though.

People then comparing themselves in the class for 'how long I had slept', and I'm the winner! lol

I passed up my programming project and IT assignment by 3pm. It's like 'smashing' feeling at that time, indeed. I managed to hand in those stuff on time.

I admit, I did slept for an hour and a half in the afternoon. Just put it like my 'small return' of completing my assignments. Still, we can't do anything about the magazine since the other members faced a few problems of their own with their given parts. Frank had to consult with the teacher for an extension of time.

Now it's time for me to go to my beloved bed now... good night everyone... good night my Goddess...

Swinburne On 'Fire'!!

After my nice Friday lunch-break in the Swinburne Cafeteria, there came a buzzing sound from outside, Then...! "Ring....! Ring..!" the alarm bell went wild and mad!

" Haiz...the mosquito smoke again... " when I spoke to my friend, William. At 1st no one was panicked because we knew the 'harmless' smoke was just a duty required from the government. All the hostels' and canteens' emergency alarm went nuts, even the old block's lift went 'riot' and stopped working. All in a calming situation, no chaos involved. The MPH's bell system seemed to react 'fine' like the others'.

Hostels on 'Fire'

The alarms went 'siao' kee.

We went out to take a fresh breath but the air was 'polluted' by the smokes, and we were surrounded by them.

The back of the old block. Can you see the culprit? Hehe...

Wah! The smokes were coming into the building.

Luckily the air-cons' air flow pushed the smokes away from the gaps between the glass doors.

My lovely Friday has been destroyed by the smoke. Damn not the culprit but the mosquitoes. Let them die in peace then, rather in smacked pastes. God bless the 'little ones', may their victims forgive their wrong doings and evil desires. Amen.

Wuahahaha.... *evil laughter*

Public Speaking Contest in Swinburne!

Having the challenging day of the month with my Public Speaking Contest today. Well I managed to get into the Semi-Final, but hey! Everyone was going to the Semi's. Apparently that half of the contestants 'Chickens Out' with that terrible experience, even I thinking of quitting the damn speech.

Nah! Challenge is the best part of my life, what for I quit? Luckily I didn't do so. It was totally cool and fun, I tell you! The contest went very well and free food of course is part of the 'best' parts, haha...

Man! I can tell you that it's tough to beat up these guys but still I found out that there was slight chances to break in... until the 2nd round...

I blasted the 2nd round for 'Most Embarrassing Moment' in my history (mind you that the 1st one is the 'Historical Figure' and I talked about Dr.M.). I totally forgot about my most humiliating moments (p.s. I forgot a lot of things... ), and I just gave out a 15 second speech! (Damn my brain-disk!)

Ashik was doing fine in the morning, and he managed to prepare his speech in the 'early' morning, or should I say... 3am? But hey! Any effort will do as long as he wrote something. And that sacrifice has brought him RM200! He won the 'Most Humorous'-RM50 and 'Champion'-RM150 prizes! Wow! He's so like 'I'm RICH! I'm RICH! at that time, haha... still have his picture motions in my mind now.

These are the nominees: Ashik, Mohamud Naser, Eing Muda, Dabibi, and Irishia Liew.

Mohamud Naser in the Finals- The Zoo
He talked about what he thinks in the zoo, and he realized since in childhood that people should let the animals free, imagining that we are the animals in the other planet, doing something different to attract the 'people' to feed us, but giving away our freedoms.


Steve the Narrotor (or should I say the clown?)- The best speaker award winner in Swinburne's Debate Club, won a few trouphies for our Uni. He can talk almost anything with his talents in speaking. He's my ideal teacher as my public speaking guide. I learnt a lot form him.


Brendan (Not in the Final but the Semi's)- I just took his picture for fun only oh, haha... his blog is Great! Even with foul words! Tempting... for his blog.


Eing Muda in the Finals- Talking about...? I forgot. But I know her topic about the 'First Love' in Semi's, she talked bout her cats, scratching it's belly, loving the cat like her 'First Love' boyfriend. Suddenly most of the boys like to be her cat. It's quite a laugh by that time. Oh yeah! She's one of the stress giver when Ashik saw her weraing formal and carrying her laptop like office woman, so damn serious.


Ashik talking rubbish- Yup! He's the winner in all. He can talk like the speed of a train if he's energetic and furious. His humor had brought quite an interest for us. God bless you, Ashik! Keep up the good 'shitty' talks (that's what he said when I asked him why he's not joining the Public Speaking Contest? He repiled, 'I can talk fast, but I talk shit.') Now the 'shit' becomes the 'gold'.


Irishia Liew in the Finals- 'Seize the day', what is seize the day anyway? It means 'go for it'. She just found out the meaning after she finished her speech and asked Nazer bout it... -,-lll


Stevie in action- While teasing him for 'proposing his girlfriend's father' in the room after the whole Finals ended. He tried to talk how the girl was, and persuading us for the marriage part. We do learn a lot at that part though.


Dabibi the Black Asker- He 'judged as a father' for the 'girlfriend' part. 'You are making not only the father sleeps, but the girlfriend too'...haha. He did well as the 1st runner up in the Novice catagory.

Ashik keeps on fearing Dabibi, Eing Muda and Naser for nothing. He thanked Naser for teaching him the Goods & Bads. And he did act 'dramatically' when fake-crying. He's a great guy to be with and I'll shall appreciate his accompany.

Drink Red Bull, Makes You Fly Like Sea Gull

Today we have a visitor team from 'Red Bull', driving an 'Austin' named 'Red Bull'... lol!
This team offers 2 games- Paper plane & Egg dropping... lol!

The longest record was the 100++ inches range and followed by 94++ inches, starting from under the bridge of the old block of my University, until behind the big red water tank. The one that shocked me wasn't the range of the flying planes but the Tauke of the Swinburne Cafeteria also joined in the fun of plane throwing! lol again!

There were a few pretty young girls doing part time jobs as promoters and they could socialize with the crowds well. But the DJs are Ah Mu (Old Ladies)... lol

The Djs... so 'YounG'....

Measuring the plane's distance...

The 2 'social' girls.

The English & Communication class was quite a fuzz and busy day, teaching my Goddess about her article, preparing the magazine templates and categorized the topic, focusing the theme colours for the sub-topics.

Go for the Finals! Go for the tests! Go for my Goddess!

The Presentation

Congrats to my team for all the best work! We have done a great job. After the leak of the presentation stress, we are readying ourselves for further challenges. I still have my Front Page, Programing Exercise and Project. A sip of 'freedom' can come in handy for later days.

This morning I saw my Goddess in the cafeteria, and guess what? We spoke to each other, Stress-less! That had given me the boost in spirit in my presentation. A job well done for me. I guess she wasn't angry at me after all. So what is her historical problem anyway...? Hmm... problem aside.

She looked so happy the whole day, together with her group of friends, named GiFC. That's a group I'm sure, wanting to join in... for now. I saw a group member who always sticks with her, guess what? He's my opponent in this 'LOVE WAR'. I'll be watching him by anyhow, anywhere, and 'eliminate' him by any means necessary... lol! I'm not that kind of jerk to harm others for my Goddess, just that I feel kind of jealous. That's what I feel always when my all my previous dream girls are 'robbed' from me before I get any chances to advance. Since I have my new target, I'll push forward to do a front 'assault' into her life, gaining any relevant informations about her... and...

Let the games begin! From this hour, we dine in Heaven! (Quote from the movie '300')

To My Dearest Grandma

I met my grandma just now, and she's alive and kicking like usual. She still has the most sweet smile and her big specs on. I miss her cooking in my old days in my hometown. The one I always worry about her is that I can never see her in my wedding ceremony since she's too old and I don't know how long will this last. I know her more than her other grand children. She likes little children that she can play and smile with them from the 1st sight. That's what she is, an mother-like angel that keeps the little ones with hope and love. But unfortunately she's yet a Christian. I always care for her needs since she gave me more than she has. I felt her love before and I can still feel it now. That's what my grandma is made of - L.O.V.E.

I hope my 'Father' can bless her with my might and will, that she will be a Christian someday.

May God Bless Her, and God Bless All Of You.

My Best Dream For This Month

I was sleeping in a soundless night, with my dream girl beside me. Seeing her peaceful face, calm movement in the bed, I felt like kissing and hugging her gently in my arm...

This is the warmest night dream I ever had... for now. I always dream of having sex with my previous dream girls, but this time is totally different. I feel like protecting her away from the demons and harm. I guess I'm starting to miss her after we met since last week.

She is a young fine lady even though she does look kind of childish sometimes. Her results in her school are superb and I can see her seriousness in her study when she focusing her books. She did skip classes several times and this doesn't bother her academic marks at all. Btw, she is really polite to everyone. I'm impressed and got attracted by her. She's also the one who influence me to start my first Blogspot. My 'Father' is a strange God who always lead me to somewhere where I met different female beings and discover my true abilities from them. I learn to write poem, blogging and body language of the feminine. Thank you, 'Father'.

Well, this is what I dreamed of for my family, having 2 kids and a fine cute lovely wife. I don't aspect much for my wife's beauty since this 'beauty' fades away in years. She's strong enough to keep herself going and taking care of our children if I'm gone. We can share our feelings and burdens for this world to keep ourselves going and alive.

Best to get going now, because there's a test coming in the next hour.

Good night my lovely Goddess. Keeping your warmest image in my best dream of the month.

Welcome My Fellow Mates

I'm new in the blogging business, so I just keep this simple and enjoyable.

Nickname: Roy
Sex: Male (or should I say I'm a virgin... get it?)
Race: Malaysian Chinese
Status: Single
Description about me: Short hair, not-so-tall but not-so-short guy with a pair of spectacle and sexy voice
What I like to do: Online-ing, blogging, forum-ing, laughing, thinking, focusing, learning, playing, working, jungle trekking, joking, reading, watching, listening, challenging, dancing and almost anything.

What people say about me: Mature, humorous, cute, active, cool, calm, smart, wise, loyal and holy.

I sort of enjoy my days and my life always, listening to any music to control my emotions and encourage myself to do stuff I always wanted to do. I like to read articles about relationship, health, and some technical stuff, that's for my learning part. I also helps people especially in relationship problems, sharing advices and care. My friends like to talk to me about their hard times in their relationships and they feel free to say anything about them. I'm glad to help anyone who seek relationship advices, a much as I can, just like in forums.

I'm the type of 'Family' guy (don't misunderstand me as the 'Family Guy' cartoon). I like to gather with my family, especially my 83 (2008) year-old grandma. She's still active and loving, while making her profits from natives as a tailor in a shop. My mom is a fine looking woman, but tend to get furious sometimes. Most my friends from different ages thought that she's my elder sister. My father is a funny but serious man who smokes a lot. He knows a lot of friend from any specialties and he's a 'Legend' of the newspaper companies as he's a responsible and wise man to handle the printing machines. But he judges and criticizes a lot. He's one of my model examples.

I always hope to have a girl friend of my own and get married to start my own family. Well, thinking as a long term plan is good, but not good enough for now. Even though I'm considered as good enough to be a good husband, I still have a long way to go. Love is not a joke and it might take your life away for 'good'. Start from a simple courtship is fine with me and I plan to have simple relationship while studying.

Having a love life is a nice way to know more about your future partner, and this stage will be the suitable time for more communication between each other. I like to befriends with people, but seeking a girl friend gives me the tough luck. I've failed for many times and I'll challenge myself to meet more girls. This may look desperate, and I can say that I will be when I'm more than 25. Lonely is good and bad for me as I think and ponder a lot, even when I'm washing my car, sitting on my sofa, watching a drama and so on. My university's life will be the 1st step to walk into my 1st relationship ever (that's what I'm hoping). Will my 'Father' guide me to it or we shall put it aside? Thank God that he has given me so much and therefore I'll be loyal to him just like always.

Btw, I'm a Christian child... in a university.