Things I Want To Say In Christmas

Merry and Jolly Christmas Everyone!


Ho Ho Ho...


The End

Getting Better And Better (Updated)

Congrats for my friends and I who got good results.
Thanks for all your help and advices which assisted my 'adventure' throughout the 1st semester in my 1st university and my 1st study in an actual higher education institute.

I'm happy for you all.

I got 4 Ds in my result (even though I'm aiming for a few HDs, but I'm quite satisfy with the current ones @,-/ )

Since I have failed my application for my Yayasan Sarawak Loan, then I have to see forward PTPTN Loan and Tunku Abdul Rahman Scholarship.

PTPTN Loan now officially charges 1% loan interests, plus, IT students have the authority to get RM8000 for 1 semester, enough for my degree fees. But I prefer Yayasan Sarawak better cause they don't have any interests, and you have to be a Sarawakian. I'll try both instead.

Tunku Abdul Rahman Scholarship is known for cover up all uni's expenses for Free-Of-Charge!
This scholarship just came out this few months for what I know. Someone told me about it and I haven't notice how good it is until I got an confirmed answer from the local agent's mouth (and print out of course). From the rumour, this special 'treat' have to be taken with a few steps:

-Filling up forms
-Wait for their inform letter
-Interview with some boring authorities
-Pray for getting the scholarship
-Then you open an account for the Ka-Ching to squeeze in our bank account

BTW, this privilege includes an allowance of RM700 per month! And we don't have to pay back a cent for it. What a charm!
This is what I wish for... but not for the special condition of 'must-have 3.0 GPA and above' thingy.

Now I'm ready to apply for the RM1500 rebate for my previous course fee and suck out all my money from Swinburne as a payback for getting my father's 'blood and sweat' KWSP money. He agrees to use that rebate money for my next semester's 3.5 months' allowances. Luckily I got Swinburne Debate Club, Anime & Manga Society, & Badminton Club to support my back for the application, cause it's one of the 'syarat' that you have to be active in cocuriculums to get this bloody money from them.

Glad I can help my family a bit to overcome my family's incomes. Thanks to my dearest parents and friends for all these helps you gave me. Without you all I may not have any chances to achieve today's result.

Best of luck to you all.
God Bless =)

PS. The 'good things' I mentioned above only available for us, the freaking Malaysians who have no money but pride in our land (as if...).
Things change, so does the loans & scholarships. I'm not responsible for the information given above. Please use them as references.

Updates: Seems that the RM1500 rebate for foundation is mainly for students who achieve the result of 'D' and above throughout the whole year in the current program. Available for one time discount in one semester. Damn that's hard. Better luck next time.

Tagged by Audrey

8 people to tag:

1. Chong
   
2. Samuel
   
3. KennySia(?)
   
4. Jean
   
5. Someone
   
6. Somebody
   
7. Noone
   
8. Nobody
   

8 things I am passionate about:

1. Blogging
   
2. Gaming
   
3. Jungle Trekking
   
4. Watching National Geographic or any good movies
   
5. Scene-watching
   
6. Thinking about something
   
7. Reading newspapers & books
   
8. Studying something new
   

8 things I say too often:

1. So?
   
2. Then?
   
3. Ngaidi...
   
4. Walaueh!
   
5. 哈 ?
   
6. Sorry?
   
7. 是哦 ?
   
8. 然后 ?
   

8 movies I have watched recently:

1. Money Not Enough 2
   
2. Twilight
   
3. Hell Boy
   
4. Hell Boy 2
   
5. Harold and Kumar 2: Escape for Guantanamo Bay
   
6. Love Guru
   
7. Just Married
   
8. And many more... (actually I forgot most of them)
   

8 songs that I can listen to over and over again：

1. Womanizer - Britney Spear
   
2. When I Grow Up - Pussy Cat Dolls
   
3. 晴天 - Jay Chou
   
4. 开天窗 - 五月天
   
5. 爷爷泡的茶 - Jay Chou
   
6. 稻香-Jay Chou
   
7. 心中的日月 - 王力宏
   
8. One- Epik High
   

8 things I learned the past year：

1. Accepting what you have in your hand now
   
2. Don't let go something you have for something you don't have
   
3. Sleep well keep people going well
   
4. Keeping our problem ourselves won't do any good
   
5. Friends are hard to make when we are quarreling before we meet
   
6. Blogging is not the ideal place to express our most deep feelings
   
7. Joy to the world make us feel 'gay' (happy)
   
8. Some people definitely makes us realize something precious even though they are annoying
   

8 places I like to go in Kuching:

1. The Spring
2. Wisma Satok
   
3. Sarbakas
   
4. Sarawak Plaza
   
5. Holiday Inn (City)
   
6. Damai Beach
   
7. Cultural Village
   
8. Don't know...
   

8 things that you will be doing today:

1. Eat
2. Sleep
3. Watch TV
4. Gaming
   
5. Badminton-ing
6. Washing my car
   
7. Washing my longkang
   
8. Drying clothes
   

8 things I regret this past year:

1. Not joining the GYM
   
2. Troublemaker
3. Visit more places in Kuching
   
4. Hurt people's feelings
   
5. Study the last minute
6. Emotional
   
7. Fail to get my Yayasan Scholarship
   
8. Being too childish

Gossip

I seriously have to write something for my blog. Resisting is not an option for me.
After coming back for so long, I haven't write anything for my dearest blog, feeling shameful for my Blog. Work, work, work... Time for my private time with Bloggy!

Gossip

Girls like to gossip, including the boys. Last night when I was watching "RachelRay" late night show (missing the David Letterman Late Night Show, damn NTV7 for replacing the GOOD show!). The show gave me an idea on this topic. Rachel (the Host) inspired me when she decided to let 4 women stop gossiping for a WEEK! That's not hard for certain people, but I can seriously tell you that they couldn't even resist the 'taste' of saying people's 'back'. When the challenge started, they were speechless, in a manicure shop.

The girls just say there in total silence... The show ended by the time I went to bed. LoL

Gossiping is a sin among Christians, but how can we tell that we are gossiping?
Basically giving false accusations and stories isn't a good idea. Gossiping can be 'deadly'.

This week's Sunday church, 'Mouth can be Disasterous, Mouth can be Praiseful'.
The Priestess said that among our body parts, the tougue/mouth, is beyond our control.
We, humans, can control beasts, control most of the things on Earth, but can't dominate our own tongue...

We hear what other people says and make short conclusions. Have you wonder that what if you are the one who is being talked about, letting other people to have bad impresions of you when you haven't do anything bad?

It must be frustrating and desparing...

So 'filter' of what other people says, comparing ourselves 1st before concluding others. What is our worth or power to say someone when we are no better than others?

The End Of Semester One, 2008

Finally it's over! The EXAM has ended my 1st sem in Swinburne Uni. This has been a great deal to me cause this is my 1st experience in a Uni, and thank God that all ends well...

And I'm still in 1 piece! Wuahaha...

I did make some bad impressions on some people,but hey! Who doesn't make mistakes? And I'm glad that it's over too. Still... it's kinda hard to face those guys. Sorry man!

Most of my dearest Swinburne friendzis went back home, and I start to miss them already, in Kuching, my aunt's house. Guys, I'll always remember you all, thanks for the good times! I'll appreciate them always. Hope to see you all soon, or ASAP!

Well, back to my hometown, same old place where I was born, walked, ran, drove, had primary and secondary school life. But those are the past, now I have to venture through those memories to create more precious and mindful 'videos and pictures' in my head... or brain.

I have to go to work at the same old place, my other aunt's home, or home-based shop? Or should I say a shop in a home? Whatever lah!

It's a good place to be or a last place you'll be thinking of getting a job there. Since my aunt(hometown one) asked me to get back to help her, so I don't mind to get my arse back to the 'horrible' place. Her house is always an 'unstable' workplace. She and her family gets along by almost fighting all the time. Can't blame the kids, they are truly 'emo' children, who my cousins only gets along when they are 'needy' in some favours. They don't always listen to their mom(my aunty in my hometown) unless, they are in happy mood.

Geesz... I wish I won't be working there for too long, just in the favour of my part-time job, or big fat juicy pocket money. I may work there for almost 2 months.

So I guess it won't be long enough before I knew it's 'Back-to-Uni' time (as IF!). Just sabar sabar sikit.

All will be fine...

I hope so...

Tomorrow's the day! Hometown, here I come!

*PS: Go back by 'land-bus', instead of air-bus. Promoted by Biaramas, the land version of AirAsia. I spinned the lucky Wheel-of-Biaramas, but only got a can of 'F&N Full Cream Milk' after buying a '2-way' bus ticket.
Ngaidi... Wish I got a ViVA, or a massage chair at least(Yeah, dream on!).
Plus, I met my Programming 1 teacher this afternoon, in the middle of the traffic jam somewhere in Kuching, in front of his Perodua Kancil! What a coincidence. We said 'Hi' in a soundless way. We were in our cars.

The ColorQuiz I've taken

Roy took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "His need to feel more causative and to have a wide..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Roy's Existing Situation

Readily participates in things that provide excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilarated.

Roy's Stress Sources

Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which he feels separates himself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. He therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on him and insists on being free and unhampered.

Roy's Restrained Characteristics

Believes that he is not receiving his share--that he is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that he is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave him without any sense of emotional involvement.

Feels that he cannot do much about his existing problems and difficulties and that he must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow himself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.

Roy's Desired Objective

His need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes him restless and he is driven by his desires and hopes. May try to spread his activities over too wide a field.

Roy's Actual Problem

Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

Roy's Actual Problem #2

The fear that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants leads him into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.


I just tried this quiz out for fun. It does shows some promising answers. Well just for reference only oh!

2nd Day of My Final in 1st Sem

Wow! That was indeed fast! Just finished my inno test, & right now there are still some students in the Exam field, surviving the 'exam-war'. Well, there were some of them earlier than me, but...

Who Cares!

That's half-relief for my examination stress and I still have to study my maths this whole day.

The inno was like so easy and steady for me, cause I already finished my inno textbook a few days ago, while worrying on the '9 lives of the CAT' will come out.

Sadly... It didn't show up in the test papers! Wuahaha!

I wrote my papers in a flash and ended it in about 1 & a half hours (there were some finished in 1 hour though).

This morning I woke up at 7.20am & revised my 'secret' paper which I got last night. I watched the 'Love Guru' before I when to bed, but I read through the whole paper to get a minor knowledge with the 'questions' of the 'secret' paper.

And I can say they are 'quite' similar from the 'pirated' one with the 'original' one. Lucky me.
That explains why I can finish my inno test fast.

Well, back to my study and gaming then!

God Bless the Examiners and the Students =)

My Angel

I have been keeping this poem for so long in my laptop that I almost forgot bout it. I wrote a lot of poem before but I always misplace them somewhere in my PC. This is not my latest creation but I'll put it here anyway. Feel free to give a comment if you like.

~ My Angel ~

You keep me alive

Like an angel in the sky

You look unreachable because you are high

I can’t even touch your thigh

I reject and deny

That you are ugly and simplify

I wish I’m given enough time to notify

To eat and share a pie

Happy together without making you cry

Someday we can hold hands and fly

Into the Kingdom with no why

~

Crying...

Crying can mean many things.

We cry...

When we are losing someone.
When we are hurting someone.
When we are being hurt.
When we are touched by something sad.
When we are failing to achieve something.

This obviously, when we are sad...

In the other hand.

We cry...

When we are having a new born baby.
When we are watching a happy ending.
When we are missing each other.
When we are looking at our married children.
When we are having precious memories.

This obviously, when we are enjoying ourselves, having sweet times together.


Tears of sadness, Tears of joy;
Tears of losing, Tears of gaining.

People are having this emotion, since their day of birth, showing their nature feelings.
Now, we also cry when we realized that we are having something or losing something.
I cried before... when...
The 1st day I was born.
The 1st time when I was hungry.
The 1st time when I missed my family.
The 1st time when I watched a really nice & sad movie.
The 1st time when I went to NS.
The 1st time when I messed up other people's life.
But this doesn't end here.
Who knows, I may be crying now in my heart.

Crying doesn't mean that you must show your tears, and sometimes you'll probably cry for nothing. It's just a relief of stress, your inner feelings that you want to let go. Crying makes me feel good when I can't cry out loud, so I have to let out bits by bits.

I wonder, what if people can't cry? Will they let out their stress well? Even for boys, crying is better for us to express our world inside. Men can't cry easily because they don't want to show their soft side; Women can use the crying method to make men softhearted sometimes. We men are the same, will cry like a woman, but won't show it in the public.
Crying is a good 'tool' that benefits everyone. We cry, we let go everything that bind our mind every time we think about them, no matter good or bad.

Feel free to cry sometimes, and it will make you free from keeping that something in your life's memory.

Cleverness & Wisdom 聪明&智慧

Actually I want to write this post in Chinese, but it takes too much time.
So English will have to do...
Here goes!

What is cleverness? What is wisdom?

Definition, cleverness (聪明) -
Online Dictionary - Mentally quick and original; bright
My POV - Using something you learn from either people or things to solve problems

Definition, wisdom (智慧) -
Online Dictionary - Common sense; good judgment
My POV - Using what you experienced in life & your knowledge to make decisions

It's hard to explain with words with these complicated 'Brothers' when united. Both of them are strongly related to each other in leading people's life. They are inseparable throughout the human's history.

Cleverness is mainly began from writings and words. This is the basic starting point of knowledge before wisdom. We learn from books, stories, encyclopedias, dictionaries, but all of these give you the meaning of those words and their structures of your great knowledge in the future.

Wisdom is given to those who think with common sense. Logical thinking, adding some future predictions. Some say that this is Six Sense, and some say this is your spiritual guidance. But all these starts from what you have experienced in your life and what is your perspective in life. Confucius is one of the great modal for Wise Men. It's like doing your 'Innovation & Change'; PMI, CAF, NAF, and so on. Have you ever wonder that this course does have it's own destiny to lead us to maturity or wisdom?

The more we learn in our years of living, the more possibilities we can get and make use of them, hence this adds into our 'Wisdom Database'.

From what I watched from the 'Video Jug' in the pass few weeks, there's a video clip called 'How to be a Psychic?'.
The guy said that "a psychic can see different things and learn more than normal people who doesn't have time to think over everything he saw in his life", "he can see the third dimension or so called the spirit world", "he thinks somehow differently with others".

I did saw a spirit when I was about 11 years old. That was the time when I heard my old dog behind my house, howling like crying over something. In Chinese myth, it says that when you hear a dog 'cries', it means there is some 'spirit/ ghost' nearby. We humans tend to think that the 'ghost' is something like in the movies, scary... Back to my story. By that time, behind my old house lies a small forest. At that age, Sibu was not much of a city, so there were many forest around. In the night about 8-9pm, my dog howled when I was taking a bath in the 2nd floor. My bathroom was just behind my house, and once I came out from the bathroom, I could see the dark forest. There it hovered, across the dark, in white... I thought I was blurred at that time, but no. My hound kept on looking at that 'thing', where I spotted it. When it was gone, my dog stopped.

So is this considered as my whole new perspective in my thinking? I don't really know. Scientifically speaking, there is no such thing as ghost. But later in this era, there are too many signs, showing that God did created this world. The world has changed, but we still staying in the same old way. I can tell you that spirit does exist. Maybe I have to convince you by show it to you, but it depends on how you believe it. Don't make fun with the holy spirit and God, who knows, someday we'll be meeting him when the time comes.

Oh yeah, actually I want to connect my post with what I heard from the priestess in my Sunday church today. She said that even though you are with great wisdom and knowledge, you still have to fear and bow to thy God. He's the real 'person-in-charge' in our life. So don't play play with Him.

Add-on: My mother's eldest brother (my uncle), he had seen more spirits than I had. Once he saw a few spirit in the midnight near the porch that he hid himself under the car, waking up the next day morning there. LOL

【男的朋友，男朋友与老公异同】

1.

男的朋友：他会说好多好多好听的话哄你开心，就算你再怎么生气发脾气他都是笑嘻嘻的，他会想方设法讨好你，应为他在追求你。

男朋友：他只会对你说一些有用的话，更多的是谈论你的生活，健康，学习，工作等方面的事，因为他从心里关心你。

老公：他会嫌你话多，她不会说好听的甜言蜜语给你听，甚至不准做无聊的事，因为他认为你是他的。

2.

男的朋友：他会让你逃课，带你去任何你想去的地方玩，他也会陪你干一些你喜欢的疯狂事情，因为他想哄你开心，但他没有为你的将来着想。

男朋友：他督促你去上课，让你早点起来看书。他催你做作业，上课要听讲，所以上课的时候不会和你说话，他也会陪你自习。他考虑的是你的未来，他希望你好。

老公：她才不会管你怎么样，相反的是你督促他不要抽烟喝酒，在家里他就得听你的。

3.

男的朋友：他不在乎你和其他的男生来往，他只觉得和你在一起开心就好。

男朋友：你要是和其他的男生在一起，他会吃醋，他会发脾气，他会不高兴，甚至想扁那个男生，他不愿意和其他人共同拥有你。

老公：如果你和其他男人有来往，他的脸色会很难看，甚至你给异性打电话过于投入，他也会故意在你身前咳嗽，脾气不好的可能还会吵架。

4.

男的朋友：当你穿一件很漂亮但是有点暴露的衣服的时候，或你化妆得很漂亮的时候，他会夸你漂亮，说各种让你开心的话哄你，可以把你说得好开心好兴奋。他在讨好你！

男朋友：他也会说你好美，好漂亮，但在赞美你过后，他会说一句：虽然这样很漂亮，但只能穿给我看。

老公：干嘛穿成那样？你什么样我还不知道吗？

5.

男的朋友：当你生病难受的时候，他会说一些笑话或一些开心的事逗你开心，让你觉得他好。他问你的病情怎么样，然后关心你，让你觉得他是世界上最关心你的人。

男朋友：如果你病得很重，他会担心你的病情，甚至整夜不睡都在担心，因为你痛苦他的心也会痛。如果你病不是很严重，他会不停的唠叨，要你以后注意一点啊，关心到甚至你烦。

老公：虽然平时不是很关心你，甚至不在乎的样子。你生病的时候，他还会不停的埋怨你，怪你怎么搞的，没事生什么病。但你放心，为你端水端饭的绝对是他，当你第二天病好醒来，他绝对是坐在床边守着你睡着的，那时你会觉得其实他蛮可爱的。

6.

男的朋友：我喜欢你！希望永远和你在一起！

男朋友：我爱你！不要离开我！

老公严厉地对你说：我只爱你一个人！

每个人做事都有自己的理由，不管是好是坏，希望从中得到利益。朋友中的服侍跟对待不一定是坏的，虽然有的看起来很有企图心，心机重似的，每个人的做法都不同。就像之前的【男的朋友，男朋友与老公异同】的小故事：每个都要表达同一个讯息。

尤其是异性对你特别好的时候，就会感觉得到他一定有一定的请求来讨你欢心。其实有时我们太多心了。朋友之间的相处都有不一样的举动来表达，给不同的人，不同的概念和达到的意思。而且有时暗示得太深，令人有个错误的概念，直到他人误会，弄巧反拙。

Worries

I'm thinking over what I have done...

...That I'm starting to change into a devil in the blog world...
...That I'm starting to hurt people's feelings...
...That I'm too emotional and start to get revenge in the blog world...
...That I'm doing stupid things in the blog world...
...That I'm messing other people's life...
...That I can't control my blogging's bad attitude...
...That I'm falling into blog world...
...That I'm turning into a childish blogger...
...That other people hate me for what I've wrote...
...That people gives bad impression to me in the real world...
...That I offended other people for my writings...

What have I done?!
I asked myself...
Is this my true self?
Is this my true form?
Is this what I really want?
Am I pretending to be good and polite in the real world?
Am I thinking too much?
What is my real objectives in my life?
Who am I for all these years?

Thanks for the people who read my blog, now I have to 'reset' myself.
I apologize for what I've done to you all, and hope for forgiveness...
I was over protecting myself and trying to fight back, but things won't end well like this.
It's like a war, leaving casualties and black memories.
Even the word 'Sorry' won't do any better.
Unless they are kind enough to forgive and forget all of this.

In the real world, I've always being bullied by people.
They mocked me, teased me, making fun of me, call me names, but still they are my friends.
That was years ago. I can't let go my tensions when I was very young. I don't know what to do and where to express myself. Until I meet the Blog World...

In my mind, I curse people, say bad things about them if they have done something I can't really forgive, but I'll eventually change my mind a few days later. I found out that it's hard change my words again after for what I wrote, and people will get offended and think that I'm a bad person. It takes time for me to think over something bad into positive. Sometimes I'm angry with things, but I'll remind myself that things will get better over time, and you may find it funny and interesting when you recall them. I learn from the negatives and dull experiences, nothing will be more valuable than these.

What have I learned... yesterday (Updated)

I'm kind of depressed yesterday after causing so much trouble but Mark make me feel really good with his simple and deep words. This is what he said...

Blog world is the virtual world to give our opinions to others, and when people flame your opinions at the first place, you are not the one who looks bad, it's them who look stupid.

Try to explain to the flamers with your own words may not change their minds because they don't know your stress of the words and they may misunderstand of what you said. They may be angry at that time and they will read your explanations with anger and change the 'colours' of the meaning to their likings.

When things are getting 'hot', try to leave it there for a while and explain after some time. If they still don't understand it, try again after some time again. But still talking is a better way to explain because they can really feel what you said.

The more you grip or protect of what you have, to more you loss from time to time.

Over protecting your friends and families without using proper way can make you more enemies around you.

Even the best of a friend can back stab you anytime and we better be prepared for anything.

If you lose friends here, you'll have to make friends there.
(I hate this part, but still have to make use of this in the real life sometimes)

And the last but not least...
He likes to collect original games and sometimes pre-order them! Haha...

Finally it's over...
I'm now happy that things are now calm at the moment and I can 'rest in peace'. Lol... I mean sleep in peace... whatever lah! Hahaha... ... ...

PS. Again, I'm not shooting anyone here, this is what Mark convinced me. Btw, thanks Mark, for everything.

The Do's & Dont's

What can you do in a BLOG?

Do's

01. Express your true inner self, write whatever you want.
02. Give opinions from what you know and take opinions from people as your reference.
03. Write your own post with emotions sometimes and make sure you let all the anger out in your post at a time (but don't smash your laptop or keyboard lah).
04. Give comments with friendly words and rational advices.
05. Read more than twice on the people's blog post before giving comments.
06. Try to keep other people's comments clean and clear from 'flaming'.
07. Counter attack other people when they 'flame' you with proper explanations and better with reference in case they reject from what you said.
08. Praise the blogger who write a nice post for you to read.


Dont's

01. Try to 'flame' people's blog post without knowing what you said. This can show that you are really stupid.
02. Don't give any opinion if you don't really carefully read through the whole blog post.
03. Don't admit or let people know that you are the one who the blogger was mentioning about.
Exp.
Owner of the blog -' I saw that he is naked while running around.'
The comment-er - 'Have dare you said that I ran around naked? I was wearing my pants, you know?'
Then people knows bout you and try to find out who you are.
04. Giving opinions like a 3 years old child.
Exp.
'You can't do this but I can /I ban you from giving comments in my blog'
What can you do by stopping or ordering people around in the blog?
05. Read people's blog post and take things seriously and emotionally and giving emotional comments.
06. Find out the blogger and try to take actions by yourself.
Exp.
Still remember the ISA case? Now people are making fun of them because they arrest bloggers, do you want to be like them? Then the rest of the bloggers will soon write something about you, and flame you.
07. Make enemies with the blogger in the real world. You may not know who are you dealing with. And better don't let them know who you are when you are flaming them without reasons. Since virtual blogging is a safe place to release stress and emotions, then just stay in the blog world.

(flame= giving comments by cursing, insulting, scolding, and something similar to that)

PS. Will add more if I have more info bout the Do's & Dont's.

Today...

Hmm... nothing special today oh...

I was overslept this day and I missed my General Maths' class... and I don't like that.
G.Math is one of my favourite class since I like Maths so much just like my father. Only Maths can make me feel 'challenged' and have fun. Have you ever heard of Sudoku? Well... I can say it can be boring sometimes when you can't solve it till the end.

English... hmm... I was once the top 5 in my English test results and it FEELS GREAT! haha...
English is also one of my favourite class when I was in my primary and secondary schools. I even got myelf the '11 SPM students' who got 1A for both Malaysian Education Department and GCE-O Level in Cambridge's markings. I also got Band 5 in my STPM's MUET. Those were the old days.

Since university students tend to speak English often, there is not much I can show with my talents in Maths and English, but still my friends ask my help sometimes when they have difficulties with them. I like to study Maths with Guhan sometimes. He's a bit 'slow' in understanding Maths at times but still he's good. He got A1 in Maths and B3 in Additional Maths. Wow! I only got A2 in my Maths and... D8 in my Add-Maths... lol

Last night I had my greatest experience for this month and it was fun too. The 'debate' started quite late at that time and I can't sleep because I was too excited and frustrated (a bit) until I slept at 2 o'clock in the morning, resulting, I missed my Maths class.

Oh well, there's always the 1st time... and the 2nd... and a 3rd... Who knows? haha... better try not to.

I'm a 'Think-ful' person when it comes to 'debating' (mostly not the official debates in class or clubs lah), I kept on thinking 'How can I overcome these questions? Possiblities? How to counter-attack those questions? hmm...' That's why I can think so much while doing other things (please refer to my 1st post). I can sometimes focus two stuff at a time, but things may end up bad...

What so ever lah!

The End...

PS. I'm urged to post pictures of my dearest grandma... hmm... hard to pick up a time though.

Virginity

Virginity....
That's what mostly boys want from the girls. I can say that us, boys, like to have virgin girlfriends and wives. But have you wonder why the boys have sex with their girlfriends and later, saying that he'll be responsible and then dump them... along... aside?

In Christian's rule, 'Virgins' are considered as holy as the church it's self. The body is kept for their true marriage in the church, with official certificates, until they are really bound together with love and sacrifices they shall give to each other as husband and wife... eternally. This is true.

Think of it, whether you are a religious person or not, you give out your 'virgin' to your boyfriend (serious cases with girls at the most), then after the 'fun' and 'romantic' night, you ask your boyfriend, 'you have to be responsible for what you did to me oh... '. Then they start to promising each other with sweet talk and cuddling together as if they are married.

The second day/ the rest of the year...
'You bastard! How can you betray me! I am so loving you and dedicated myself to you... but now you dump me and fall for another girl!?'

Or...
*Slap!* *Staring at the boy* 'Who is she!? Why are you with her?' Then starts the drama...

There are big chances that this case happens and imagine that this happens to YOU!

This is moral and dignity I'm talking about! You guys don't enjoy these kind of immoral act to the girls, as things can come to you 'accidentally', then you find yourself get killed by the fathers or the ex-girlfriends themselves. Revenge is hard to prevent when people get their tensions high, and emotions take complete control of him/ her.

'Shotgun marriage' is the term used by pregnancy before marriage, starting when a farmer taking a shotgun, pointing at his young daughter's boyfriend, forcing him to take full responsibility and marry his daughter ASAP. Things doesn't ends here, the rest of their lives might end up in chaos, fighting, cheating, hurting, and killing.

People... imaginary about having fun with sex can't be prevented, but discipline is a must have to make yourself clear that these 'fun' can ruin not only your life but others as well. Put yourself up with strict principles and rules when falling in love are the matured love that I want to have. The opened minded era that misleads the people around, is now making the girls look like hookers and prostitutes, only the difference is that they are not paid by money but charming acts or seductions. More girls in the western countries are being treated like bitches and sex mates by the boys, making the countries fail in moral education... epic failure...

The 'Playboy' magazines are now using girls like 'prostitutes' to make them look famous and sex-fun when their naked bodies are exposed to the public. I mean, come on, you girls look even better when you are virgins and make your husband happier when they found out that you are still a virgin, and you look so pretty and sexy in front of them. This is the fact.

There are a few times that I found out that friends like to give 'condoms' as presents to their friend either in a birthday or special events.

'Are you encouraging your friend to have sex before marriage or you are out of your mind?' this is what my mind pops out when I knew this happened. 'This is not funny at all... You might get your friend killed...one day...'

Boys will definitely try to use their 1st condom on the girl they like, and this ends up bringing a serious tragedy... Sex before marriage, pregnancy before 18, even worst... RAPE...

40% that a condom will fail, so does the prevent-pregnant pills which fail at 30%...

Boys and girls out there, before you have your first boyfriend/ girlfriend, think about anything that can possibly happen to you when you have sex with them... as I said... this is just the beginning of lust... and ending with unhappily ever after...


God bless to those who are wise... and those who listen to the wise...

Maturity

Have you wondered why you are not matured enough? But is there a limit or measures for it? No.

The true maturity comes from what you have learned and thoughts, based on your own experiences. We, human, can learn so much to improve ourselves. Maturity includes discipline, knowledge and life experiences.

From what you have gained from the surroundings and people, you can see that we all learn from mistakes and past. The more failure we get, the more mature we tend to be. But only after you can take over the events and guide yourself to success.

Discipline is a must have in our lives to control our attitudes and habits for helping ourselves in avoiding unnecessary 'additional' events and problems in our daily lives. This can really come in handy for the people who likes to learn the true meaning of maturity. SO laziness have to be controlled to become more mature.

Wisdom is also one of the key to success and maturity. We must think for certain amount of time to give out conclusions and decisions to just a minor stuff, and this takes a lot of patience. So, now do you think that being mature is an impossible mission? No.

People who tend to look smart and mature sometimes gives themselves the hard times because sooner or later, their real image will show up to the public and their friends. Seriously, acting like a matured person won't make you look good.

Knowledge comes from newspapers and books. Please read as much as you can to follow up the trends and solutions for maturity like relationships and social studies. This will fit in a great portion of advantage in maturity.

Keep on communicating with others well to learn more about your friends, neighbours, enemies (if you have). Those you hate and those you like will probably give you something in return as in experience or the way we talk. Learning new body language will surely give you some advantages in social skills and suitable sayings to fit in some special events like arguing/ fighting, praising, confronting new people, and comforting your friends.

The people you choose to be with is also a showing that you are matured enough to handle and befriend with the others. Your decisions are basically from what you have learned and experienced from the past or from other people's knowledge. For instance, from your friends, you know that the person you are 'targeting' as your boy/ girlfriend, from what he/ she like and attitude towards others. Maybe a little bit mix up with your pass experience with your ex-es, for what you have learned from them.

Matured people don't want to expose themselves much in the crowd for most of the times and most are boring lads who don't mix with new people much. They only depends much on luck to have a boy/ girlfriend than grouping around 'mindless' people who only enjoy the fun of doing stupid stuff as their pastimes.

From what other people said, that I'm matured. I do think like a matured guy, I do do stuff like a matured guy, my attitude is kind of strict and disciplined at times, but still I have much to learn from the others, the more you are matured, the less fun you tend to have sometimes. This fun is the mix of good and bad, but you may get some decent memories from it. I have failed to get my first girlfriend, because I'm a softhearted guy, helping the girls around does give me the credits but they always care for a boyfriend who can stay beside them for a long time, daily - which I can't do, unless we are officially boy-girlfriends, still it's hard. They can get my blessings but what can I get? Appreciations? Gratitude? That's fine with me. No blessings at the moment though. Helping is one thing, plagiarizing is another. I'll help only if necessary because I want them to be independent as their on. I don't want to involve cheating to make someone my girlfriend, better make myself clear to the crowd.

Sleepless Night

It's like so 'whoa' that I just broke my 'more than 24 hours sleepless' record! Yesterday, I woke up at 8.30am, then in the night, me and my editorial gang, Frank, Izaak, Muaid, Philip, and Henry were like busy ants, fighting the night to finish our assignments and jobs.

I had to finish my page layout for my English class magazine, like 28 Articles! That might look easy but I can tell you... it's not.

I had prepared the templates but no one was going to help me out so I have to do it along. *sob*

Later, Frank the Editor, and the rest went back to their respective home for their web page 'war'.

Anyway, Chong and Ezra had decided to help me out by supporting me with their 'spirit'(?). They have their own work, Innovation report and web page for IT. After they 'habis' their parts, they kept on accompanying me by playing DOTA and CS by themselves. Obviously, they had nothing more to do. Ezra gave up by 5.30am and went to sleep, while Chong still can manage to hold up his passion for a while.

But he fell asleep a few times... nevermind.

I kept on 'surviving' by putting on my Goddess' picture as my desktop background as my support to keep on doing my stuff, arranging the articles... And I kept on saying 'Do it for my Goddess' and like said it for a few times when I started to feel sleepy. Guess what, it worked.

The motivation kept me going until 7am, then I fell asleep, but Chong woke me up at 8am, still it's a good 'refreshing' nap. I missed my morning IT lecture though.

People then comparing themselves in the class for 'how long I had slept', and I'm the winner! lol

I passed up my programming project and IT assignment by 3pm. It's like 'smashing' feeling at that time, indeed. I managed to hand in those stuff on time.

I admit, I did slept for an hour and a half in the afternoon. Just put it like my 'small return' of completing my assignments. Still, we can't do anything about the magazine since the other members faced a few problems of their own with their given parts. Frank had to consult with the teacher for an extension of time.

Now it's time for me to go to my beloved bed now... good night everyone... good night my Goddess...

Swinburne On 'Fire'!!

After my nice Friday lunch-break in the Swinburne Cafeteria, there came a buzzing sound from outside, Then...! "Ring....! Ring..!" the alarm bell went wild and mad!

" Haiz...the mosquito smoke again... " when I spoke to my friend, William. At 1st no one was panicked because we knew the 'harmless' smoke was just a duty required from the government. All the hostels' and canteens' emergency alarm went nuts, even the old block's lift went 'riot' and stopped working. All in a calming situation, no chaos involved. The MPH's bell system seemed to react 'fine' like the others'.

Hostels on 'Fire'

The alarms went 'siao' kee.

We went out to take a fresh breath but the air was 'polluted' by the smokes, and we were surrounded by them.

The back of the old block. Can you see the culprit? Hehe...

Wah! The smokes were coming into the building.

Luckily the air-cons' air flow pushed the smokes away from the gaps between the glass doors.

My lovely Friday has been destroyed by the smoke. Damn not the culprit but the mosquitoes. Let them die in peace then, rather in smacked pastes. God bless the 'little ones', may their victims forgive their wrong doings and evil desires. Amen.

Wuahahaha.... *evil laughter*

Public Speaking Contest in Swinburne!

Having the challenging day of the month with my Public Speaking Contest today. Well I managed to get into the Semi-Final, but hey! Everyone was going to the Semi's. Apparently that half of the contestants 'Chickens Out' with that terrible experience, even I thinking of quitting the damn speech.

Nah! Challenge is the best part of my life, what for I quit? Luckily I didn't do so. It was totally cool and fun, I tell you! The contest went very well and free food of course is part of the 'best' parts, haha...

Man! I can tell you that it's tough to beat up these guys but still I found out that there was slight chances to break in... until the 2nd round...

I blasted the 2nd round for 'Most Embarrassing Moment' in my history (mind you that the 1st one is the 'Historical Figure' and I talked about Dr.M.). I totally forgot about my most humiliating moments (p.s. I forgot a lot of things... ), and I just gave out a 15 second speech! (Damn my brain-disk!)

Ashik was doing fine in the morning, and he managed to prepare his speech in the 'early' morning, or should I say... 3am? But hey! Any effort will do as long as he wrote something. And that sacrifice has brought him RM200! He won the 'Most Humorous'-RM50 and 'Champion'-RM150 prizes! Wow! He's so like 'I'm RICH! I'm RICH! at that time, haha... still have his picture motions in my mind now.

These are the nominees: Ashik, Mohamud Naser, Eing Muda, Dabibi, and Irishia Liew.

Mohamud Naser in the Finals- The Zoo
He talked about what he thinks in the zoo, and he realized since in childhood that people should let the animals free, imagining that we are the animals in the other planet, doing something different to attract the 'people' to feed us, but giving away our freedoms.


Steve the Narrotor (or should I say the clown?)- The best speaker award winner in Swinburne's Debate Club, won a few trouphies for our Uni. He can talk almost anything with his talents in speaking. He's my ideal teacher as my public speaking guide. I learnt a lot form him.


Brendan (Not in the Final but the Semi's)- I just took his picture for fun only oh, haha... his blog is Great! Even with foul words! Tempting... for his blog.


Eing Muda in the Finals- Talking about...? I forgot. But I know her topic about the 'First Love' in Semi's, she talked bout her cats, scratching it's belly, loving the cat like her 'First Love' boyfriend. Suddenly most of the boys like to be her cat. It's quite a laugh by that time. Oh yeah! She's one of the stress giver when Ashik saw her weraing formal and carrying her laptop like office woman, so damn serious.


Ashik talking rubbish- Yup! He's the winner in all. He can talk like the speed of a train if he's energetic and furious. His humor had brought quite an interest for us. God bless you, Ashik! Keep up the good 'shitty' talks (that's what he said when I asked him why he's not joining the Public Speaking Contest? He repiled, 'I can talk fast, but I talk shit.') Now the 'shit' becomes the 'gold'.


Irishia Liew in the Finals- 'Seize the day', what is seize the day anyway? It means 'go for it'. She just found out the meaning after she finished her speech and asked Nazer bout it... -,-lll


Stevie in action- While teasing him for 'proposing his girlfriend's father' in the room after the whole Finals ended. He tried to talk how the girl was, and persuading us for the marriage part. We do learn a lot at that part though.


Dabibi the Black Asker- He 'judged as a father' for the 'girlfriend' part. 'You are making not only the father sleeps, but the girlfriend too'...haha. He did well as the 1st runner up in the Novice catagory.

Ashik keeps on fearing Dabibi, Eing Muda and Naser for nothing. He thanked Naser for teaching him the Goods & Bads. And he did act 'dramatically' when fake-crying. He's a great guy to be with and I'll shall appreciate his accompany.

Drink Red Bull, Makes You Fly Like Sea Gull

Today we have a visitor team from 'Red Bull', driving an 'Austin' named 'Red Bull'... lol!
This team offers 2 games- Paper plane & Egg dropping... lol!

The longest record was the 100++ inches range and followed by 94++ inches, starting from under the bridge of the old block of my University, until behind the big red water tank. The one that shocked me wasn't the range of the flying planes but the Tauke of the Swinburne Cafeteria also joined in the fun of plane throwing! lol again!

There were a few pretty young girls doing part time jobs as promoters and they could socialize with the crowds well. But the DJs are Ah Mu (Old Ladies)... lol

The Djs... so 'YounG'....

Measuring the plane's distance...

The 2 'social' girls.

The English & Communication class was quite a fuzz and busy day, teaching my Goddess about her article, preparing the magazine templates and categorized the topic, focusing the theme colours for the sub-topics.

Go for the Finals! Go for the tests! Go for my Goddess!

The Presentation

Congrats to my team for all the best work! We have done a great job. After the leak of the presentation stress, we are readying ourselves for further challenges. I still have my Front Page, Programing Exercise and Project. A sip of 'freedom' can come in handy for later days.

This morning I saw my Goddess in the cafeteria, and guess what? We spoke to each other, Stress-less! That had given me the boost in spirit in my presentation. A job well done for me. I guess she wasn't angry at me after all. So what is her historical problem anyway...? Hmm... problem aside.

She looked so happy the whole day, together with her group of friends, named GiFC. That's a group I'm sure, wanting to join in... for now. I saw a group member who always sticks with her, guess what? He's my opponent in this 'LOVE WAR'. I'll be watching him by anyhow, anywhere, and 'eliminate' him by any means necessary... lol! I'm not that kind of jerk to harm others for my Goddess, just that I feel kind of jealous. That's what I feel always when my all my previous dream girls are 'robbed' from me before I get any chances to advance. Since I have my new target, I'll push forward to do a front 'assault' into her life, gaining any relevant informations about her... and...

Let the games begin! From this hour, we dine in Heaven! (Quote from the movie '300')

To My Dearest Grandma

I met my grandma just now, and she's alive and kicking like usual. She still has the most sweet smile and her big specs on. I miss her cooking in my old days in my hometown. The one I always worry about her is that I can never see her in my wedding ceremony since she's too old and I don't know how long will this last. I know her more than her other grand children. She likes little children that she can play and smile with them from the 1st sight. That's what she is, an mother-like angel that keeps the little ones with hope and love. But unfortunately she's yet a Christian. I always care for her needs since she gave me more than she has. I felt her love before and I can still feel it now. That's what my grandma is made of - L.O.V.E.

I hope my 'Father' can bless her with my might and will, that she will be a Christian someday.

May God Bless Her, and God Bless All Of You.

My Best Dream For This Month

I was sleeping in a soundless night, with my dream girl beside me. Seeing her peaceful face, calm movement in the bed, I felt like kissing and hugging her gently in my arm...

This is the warmest night dream I ever had... for now. I always dream of having sex with my previous dream girls, but this time is totally different. I feel like protecting her away from the demons and harm. I guess I'm starting to miss her after we met since last week.

She is a young fine lady even though she does look kind of childish sometimes. Her results in her school are superb and I can see her seriousness in her study when she focusing her books. She did skip classes several times and this doesn't bother her academic marks at all. Btw, she is really polite to everyone. I'm impressed and got attracted by her. She's also the one who influence me to start my first Blogspot. My 'Father' is a strange God who always lead me to somewhere where I met different female beings and discover my true abilities from them. I learn to write poem, blogging and body language of the feminine. Thank you, 'Father'.

Well, this is what I dreamed of for my family, having 2 kids and a fine cute lovely wife. I don't aspect much for my wife's beauty since this 'beauty' fades away in years. She's strong enough to keep herself going and taking care of our children if I'm gone. We can share our feelings and burdens for this world to keep ourselves going and alive.

Best to get going now, because there's a test coming in the next hour.

Good night my lovely Goddess. Keeping your warmest image in my best dream of the month.

Welcome My Fellow Mates

I'm new in the blogging business, so I just keep this simple and enjoyable.

Nickname: Roy
Sex: Male (or should I say I'm a virgin... get it?)
Race: Malaysian Chinese
Status: Single
Description about me: Short hair, not-so-tall but not-so-short guy with a pair of spectacle and sexy voice
What I like to do: Online-ing, blogging, forum-ing, laughing, thinking, focusing, learning, playing, working, jungle trekking, joking, reading, watching, listening, challenging, dancing and almost anything.

What people say about me: Mature, humorous, cute, active, cool, calm, smart, wise, loyal and holy.

I sort of enjoy my days and my life always, listening to any music to control my emotions and encourage myself to do stuff I always wanted to do. I like to read articles about relationship, health, and some technical stuff, that's for my learning part. I also helps people especially in relationship problems, sharing advices and care. My friends like to talk to me about their hard times in their relationships and they feel free to say anything about them. I'm glad to help anyone who seek relationship advices, a much as I can, just like in forums.

I'm the type of 'Family' guy (don't misunderstand me as the 'Family Guy' cartoon). I like to gather with my family, especially my 83 (2008) year-old grandma. She's still active and loving, while making her profits from natives as a tailor in a shop. My mom is a fine looking woman, but tend to get furious sometimes. Most my friends from different ages thought that she's my elder sister. My father is a funny but serious man who smokes a lot. He knows a lot of friend from any specialties and he's a 'Legend' of the newspaper companies as he's a responsible and wise man to handle the printing machines. But he judges and criticizes a lot. He's one of my model examples.

I always hope to have a girl friend of my own and get married to start my own family. Well, thinking as a long term plan is good, but not good enough for now. Even though I'm considered as good enough to be a good husband, I still have a long way to go. Love is not a joke and it might take your life away for 'good'. Start from a simple courtship is fine with me and I plan to have simple relationship while studying.

Having a love life is a nice way to know more about your future partner, and this stage will be the suitable time for more communication between each other. I like to befriends with people, but seeking a girl friend gives me the tough luck. I've failed for many times and I'll challenge myself to meet more girls. This may look desperate, and I can say that I will be when I'm more than 25. Lonely is good and bad for me as I think and ponder a lot, even when I'm washing my car, sitting on my sofa, watching a drama and so on. My university's life will be the 1st step to walk into my 1st relationship ever (that's what I'm hoping). Will my 'Father' guide me to it or we shall put it aside? Thank God that he has given me so much and therefore I'll be loyal to him just like always.

Btw, I'm a Christian child... in a university.